Reflections on Learning

I have learned to stand up for myself. Back then, I thought that we staff members together stand up with each other. What I learned does not work that way. I have to fight for my own battles. I had a midterm meeting on the 12th day of my placement school which was Wednesday, November 14th, 2018 with my supervisor that is in charge of the special education program at my 2nd placement school. The meeting did not go well as there are so many changes that I need to make. Within a couple of days after the meeting, I felt depressed. I couple of days after the meeting, I realized, that I cannot be depressed, I need to make changes and fight for myself. Then on Monday, November 19th, 2018, which was the 13th day at my 2nd placement, I made some changes and I stood up for myself. I told my supervisor how I felt about the meeting. I mentioned what bothered me and what did not bother me at the meeting. I am not going to say exactly what I told her, I think that is between me and my supervisor. I needed to talk to my supervisor so that I can move on. Before that Monday, I was shy to talk to my supervisor about any of my concerns. I just waited and walked around but, I do not do that anymore unless I know that my supervisor is talking to someone else. However, I am not shy about talking to my supervisor anymore. I will communicate with confidence. I pressed the reset button on that same Monday and made other changes such as being more flexible like if a student needs help and no one else is or if another EA (support worker) that needs my help and I witness that, I will help with that student and/or EA with what they need help with. I will I ask questions when needed. I have become more flexible and asked more questions when needed ever since I reset the button. I also went right into conversations because when I stood up for myself, it really has helped me develop my social and communication skills which supported me go right into conversations. I have learned a lot at my 2nd placement school. I believe in myself more than the past when I first started my 2nd placement. I also remember that one of the EAs came up to me and said that I am like a different person ever since I reset that button and stood up for myself. I knew she was telling me that message in a positive way. I am proud of myself for making some changes in a positive way and for standing up for myself.